Simon of Cyrene was forced to help our exhausted Savior carry His Cross.  How pleased would Jesus have been, had Simon offered his services of his own accord. However, Simon was not invited by Christ as you are. He says:  "Take up your cross and follow Me." Nevertheless you recoil, and carry it grudgingly.

O Jesus,  whosoever does not take up his cross and follow Thee,  is not worthy of Thee.  Behold, I cheerfully join Thee on the way of the cross.  I desire to carry it with all patience until death,  that I may prove worthy of Thee